A Granta interview with Tania James

Tania James is a novelist and short story writer whose ‘Lion and Panther in London’ is featured in Granta’s Britain. In her latest collection, Aerogrammes and Other Stories, out this May in the United States, James opens a window onto a world marked by loneliness, obsession and wild animals. Granta’s Saskia Vogel speaks to the author about writing from a child’s perspective, Mary Swann’s ‘The Deep’, and the author’s alleged anger issues.

SV: ‘Lion and Panther in London’ tells of two brothers from Lahore who come to London to seek their fortunes as wrestlers. They find themselves confronted by the oddities of life in London in 1910, including crowded living spaces and ‘the sort of fare that would render them leaden in body and mind’. Tell me a bit about the genesis of this story and how your idea of Britain influenced it.

TJ: I came across an old book called Strong Men Over the Years, a rare and remarkable account of Indian wrestlers around the turn of the century, including Gama the Great and his brother Imam. I was actually doing some very dry research on the Indian Students’ Movement, but that book was lively, comic, nostalgic and completely addictive in its illustration of these Indian superheroes.

I only had a vague idea of Britain, let alone London in 1910. But ‘Strong Men’ brought certain details to surface, such as the wrestlers’ total bafflement over the Western suit – why would anyone wear something so snug and restrictive? The more I understood about these wrestlers and their very rigorous way of life, the more freedom I felt in rendering their environment, and how they might be at odds with it.

Your story ‘What to do with Henry’ moves from the perspective of a young boy who finds a baby chimpanzee and sells it at a market to the mother who purchases it, then to chimpanzee and so on. In fact, each story in the collection unfolds in a striking and unexpected way. What is it about the short form that appeals to you?

I do love how the short form allows for some risky moves. For example aI like that children have their own way of seeing, their own elastic vocabulary for explaining the worldstory can be the perfect vessel for a particular voice, or a chorus of voices, which would be harder to sustain over the course of a novel (I’m thinking of Mary Swann’s ‘The Deep’, for example). Certainly novels can and should take risks but maybe I feel more freedom in the short story form because if it fails halfway in, I don’t feel an urge to toss myself out the window.

In the collection, many of the stories have a child as a protagonist. What is it about children’s perspectives that you find compelling?

There’s a Chekhov story ‘A Trifle from Life’, which follows the perspective of a little boy named Alyosha and ends by referring to the ‘great many things for which the language of children has no expression’. I like that children have their own way of seeing, their own elastic vocabulary for explaining the world, before their minds have been entrenched with other people’s perceptions.

Your stories often engage with South Asians in the United States and a dissonance between the two cultures. Why are these stories important?

These stories are important to me, not because they happen to be about South Asians, but because they’re circling around a certain strain of loneliness that goes deeper than cultural dissonance, that has to do with the yearning to connect with someone else, or with some unreachable vision of home. That experience isn’t uniquely specific to first – or second – generation immigrants; it’s universal, and thus compelling territory for fiction.

‘What to do with Henry’, ‘Lion and Panther in London’ and ‘The Scriptological Review’, a story about a boy who compulsively analyses handwriting: each of these explores a different world. What comes first – an encounter with scriptology or the story idea? And what kind of research is involved?

A handwriting analyst studied my signature and told me I had latent anger issues, as evidenced by the tiny hook in my T. That seemed a little nuts to me, but slightly possible, so of course my imagination began to wander in that direction. I started looking into handwriting analysis – the technical term is graphology – but I didn’t delve too deeply into any real study. I was more interested in a guy who makes up his own kind of convoluted logic. Explaining that logic, in his voice, was probably the most entertaining part of writing the story.

You’ve published Atlas of Unknowns, a novel, and Aerogrammes is published in May, as is your story in the Granta. What’s next in store?

It’s a long way off, but as of now, it’s a novel involving wild elephants and those who tangle with them.

What’s the best advice you’ve received as a writer?

Write the story that unsettles and excites you, that keeps you coming back to your desk.

Originally published on Granta.com on 11 May 2012.

Granta ‘Britain’ events next week

So, Thursday and Friday were filled with fun and literature. Last night, Don Paterson, Jim Crace and Cynan Jones spoke with Granta editor John Freeman at the British Library. The conversation moved from Britain and landscape to the craft of poetry and prose. The night before, we were at Waterstones Piccadilly with Andrea Stuart, Jamie McKendrick and Adam Foulds for readings, conversation and plenty of wine to follow. Authors, readers and journalists were seen climbing out the window onto a ledge to smoke–with a view of the Shard, the Eye and verdigris domes. And of course, our ‘Is Britain Still Great?’ debate at the Brighton Festival on 9 May. You can see the event here. Not one seat was empty in the 320-seat house. With a great event partner, there’s little you can’t do. 320 people. I’m still smiling. Speaking of which, have you seen Kris Hoffman’s  teaser film for the issue? Can you guess who’s been at our party? (Hint: You’ll need to have the Granta issue.)

If you’ve missed these or live outside of London, we’ll be coming to a town near you (most likely) on the rest of our 40-event tour. Next week, we’re in Glasgow, Birmingham, Bath, Liverpool, York, Nailsworth, Manchester, Bristol and Leeds. In the US, we’re in Washington DC and Chicago. I can’t wait to go to Manchester. With Jeanette Winterson taking up a professorship in creative writing at the university and Jesca Hoop‘s decampment from LA, I’m looking forward to feeling the Mancunian vibe. If you’re reading this blog, check out the Granta events page, and if an event is ticketed, I’d be happy to see if I can offer you a pair of tickets to join us. Just email me.

List of Delights

Ron Howard talks to Steve Martin, man of men, joy of joys in a plaid suit.

Ellen Degeneres reading Fifty Shades of Grey.

Janet Fitch explores how writing creates a city, in this case Los Angeles. And Dennis McDougal talks about the secrets of Southern California.

Peter Saville on pornography.

Foreign Policy‘s Sex Issue: from mullah sexuality to why women are a foreign policy issue.

I met someone who had never heard of or seen Chloe, Drew Droege’s genius Chloe Sevigny-inspired video series. We should all see this hilarity, if but once. Enjoy ‘Toast’.

“I normally give up carbs, but I never stick with it, and this kind of seems easier”. Slutever‘s Purple TV show. This month: sapphic dalliances.

Do you have a doppelganger? Alan Feuer does and he’ll tell you all about the moustachioed gent in his NY Times piece. (Mine is a Berlin-based blogger and arts journalist.)

How a mister became a madame in Vancouver in the 1970s.

Do cute kids like indie rock? Oh my god, the cutest video ever. Vice has been nailing it lately.

Read Me Something You Love: Rikki Ducornet’s Netsuke

When the wonderful Steve Wasserman from Read Me Something You Love asked me to join him on his podcast, Rikki Durcornet jumped to mind immediately. As readers of my blog will know well, I have been shouting my love of her novel Netsuke from the rooftops for…well, it’s coming up to a year.

The book was recommended to me by a critic in Los Angeles and on a visit to the Granta offices in NYC, I found an extra copy in our stacks of books. (We have, as you can imagine, the most wonderful stacks of books.) It was one of those magical reading experiences. The book broke open my understanding of the novel and the possibility of language. I read a few of those books this past year: Play It As it Lays (Didion), The Color of Night (Smartt Bell), The Passion (Winterson), Welcome to the Goon Squad (Egan). It was a great year for reading as a writer working on book.

I won’t go on and on about Netsuke, the powerful, precise poetic prose here… I’ll leave that to Steve and me on the podcast. Click here for a reading of an excerpt from Netsuke and a chat about lust, lies and unethical analysts. When you’re done visit the Human Reading Beings project, particularly of interest to lovers of the print book.

Derrick Santini, Leda, the swan and the police

You know when you have those apocalyptic days that make you feel like you’re in Terry Gilliam’s Brazil? Check out this article the Evening Standard ran on Friday about Metropolitan Police insisting that London’s Scream gallery take down one of Derrick Santini‘s ‘Metamorphosis’ images on the grounds that it condoned bestiality. The image depicts the Greek myth of Leda and the swan. Here’s what bothers me about this incident.

1. Animals having sex with people is not illegal in the UK (It’s the reverse that is not legal. Crazy, right?), so this image depicts a legal act. Second, the image can’t even be classified as obscene. This photograph is clearly a work of art: in a gallery context and acknowledged by the artistic community as a work of art. It does what art does best: It holds a mirror up to us and asks us to question our reactions to the artwork. The police, having received no complaints about the artwork, were using their muscle to enforce their own point of view. That is shameful and frightening. Where is the line for this kind of bullying?

2. Have a read of this section of Louise Jury’s article:

The final day of the exhibition was on Saturday and the gallery was taking down the artworks when police arrived. Ms Mehta pointed out that for prim Victorians, the myth of how Zeus, in the form of a swan, raped young Leda and produced Helen of Troy, was an acceptable form of erotica. But the explanation that the picture was based on a legend that had inspired countless generations of artists failed to cut the mustard with the police, she said.

“They didn’t know anything about the myth. They stood there and didn’t leave until we took the piece down. They asked us whether we had had complaints and we said quite the contrary. Lots of people were intrigued by it.”

So, the police bully a gallery into taking down an image depicting a legal act. They display ignorance of an iconic Greek myth. After an art expert explains the context of the piece, it has no bearing on their demand. Forget a historical precedent of this myth in the wider cultural imagination. The police don’t want to see or hear it.

In London, one of the world’s great culture capitals, can we really be pushed around by some police officers who don’t like the picture they’re looking at and that has been well-received by the general public? This incident makes it seem like law enforcement feels above the law and believes that their work is removed from creative culture and the popular imagination. Of course, art and police work  don’t seem like natural bedfellows, but shouldn’t the Law at the very least understand the culture in which they operate? The police officers involved in this incident are not street-wise to their beat. It’s also never nice being reminded that in the UK art and culture are considered by so many to be an elitist domain. That culture is non-essential. That art is only for the privileged…according to some. Through the arts, we record and make sense of our society. It is indispensable. Any employee of the state should have basic cultural literacy, high and low.

Jury writes: It is understood that the incident was not recorded by police as a crime.

No, of course not.

Anyway, the show ‘Metamorphosis’ is made of two bodies of work, one explores the story of ‘Leda and the Swan’ and the other an old folk verse ‘The Magpie’s Rhyme’. When I looked at the ‘Leda and the Swan’ series on his website I was thrilled, thrilled to see it is a lenticular image. Nothing like a moving image to make me feel giddy. Santini’s images in this series and others are deeply erotic and tantalizing. To see these in motion, click here and then visit ‘Lenticular Artworks’.

Book Review – Momentum: Making waves in sexuality, feminism and relationships

Hasn’t the conversation about sex and sexuality progressed further than this? Thinking of the recent spotlight on Rick Santorum, the obvious answer is ‘No.’ I eagerly read Momentum: Making Waves in Sexuality, Feminism and Relationships and found in this e-book collection of essays from contributors to the Momentum Conference many pearls of thought and practical advice for people across the erotic spectrum, pursuing careers in sex education and innovating in research about sex and the body. With ‘changing the conversation about sex in American’ as a recurring theme in the collection, I was reminded of the sad necessity of continuing to fight for a country where we can speak about sex and relationships intelligently and without judgment.

If you haven’t encountered Momentum Conference, 2012 was its second year. It is organized by bloggers Tess Danesi, Dee Dennis and Inara de Luna, who describe the conference like this:

MOMENTUM provides a safe place to listen, discuss and learn about sexualities and gender without the fear of reprisal or shaming. It is a space for acceptance and appreciation of diversity, including for those in the LGBTQ, sex-work, BDSM and non-monogamous communities.

During MOMENTUM we will discuss ways to bridge the baffling dichotomies our culture creates around sexuality.

I particularly enjoyed following the conference in Twitter, where everyday quotes from keynote speaker and author of the Momentum foreword Dr. Jocelyn Elders and others flowed my way via the #mcon hastag. Back to the e-book.

Some of these twenty-one essays (and one poem) are a handbook of practical advice for activists in the realm of sex education and sexual health (and all the activism in-between) (Carol Queen, Joan Price, Lara Riscol) and are helpful tools for those wanting to self-publish (Allison Moon), network and further their careers in sexology (Bill Taverner). Other essays are conversation starters about understanding our own sexual identities (Avory Faucette) and helpful advice on how to explore non-traditional models of erotic expression and loving…politely (Tammy Nelson, Cunning Minx)

The three pieces that stood out were by Lara Riscol (Culture Warrior vs Sex for Pleasure: Changing the Sexual Narrative), Audacia Ray (What the Sex Positive Movement is Bad for Sex Workers’ Rights) and Nadia West (Combating the Silencing of Abuse within the Kink and Sex-Positive Communities).

Riscol drove home the point that what we need to fight for is changing the conversation about sex, and articulates it beautifully. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her essay and how it succinctly expresses the heart of the problem with sex in America and the importance of incorporating pleasure into the dialogue. She writes:

Sex for pleasure breeds honesty, respect, and responsibility. Otherwise the ultimate fallout is simply not pleasurable. Culture warriors don’t stop sex, though they can make pleasure less attainable. America’s war on sex is really a war on conversation.

When President Clinton’s U.S. Surgeon General Joycelyn Elders answered a reporter’s question on HIV prevention that, yes, maybe masturbation should be taught as a healthy part of sexuality, she was forced to resign. Her successor Dr. David Satcher – also a pioneering African American physician from the south – released under President Bush the first-ever Call to Action to Promote Sexual Health and Responsible Sexual Behavior to begin a national dialogue “with respect for diversity” and “for what science shows is effective.” Outraged chastity crusaders pounced. End of conversation.

Audacia Ray’s piece illuminates the importance of a balanced narrative when engaging in activism. She shows why it is important to have problematic and negative experiences told alongside tales of the ‘Happy Hooker’ in order to advocate for rights that do not only address a certain class of sex worker. Of course, problematizing a narrative means that your listener has to be willing and open to objectively considering what you are saying. In a liberal society, one would assume it a given that we can explore polarizing subjects outside of a dichotomy, ie Happy Hooker vs. Exploited Victim, but we can’t. And we’re back to changing the conversation. Here’s a bit from her essay:

No one should ever, by economic constraint or any kind of interpersonal force, have to do sex work who does not like sex, who is not cut out for a life of sexual generosity (however attractively high the fee charged for it). (Whores and Other Feminists, Jill Nagle and Carol Queen eds., p. 134)

But the reality is that people who don’t like sex, or don’t like having sex with strangers, or aren’t sexually oriented toward the gender of the clients they see, or don’t like doing sexualized performances, work in the sex industry every day. And it is just that parenthetical “attractively high [fee]” that is the reason for their actions. For the majority of people who work in the sex industry, money, not sex, is the driving factor. Until a day comes when jobs are available that have wages that are competitive with the sex industry, particularly for cis and trans women, people of color, and young people who need to get out of unstable or violent housing situations, many people will sell or trade sex.

Last, Nadia West reminds us that victims of violence can be looked upon with suspicion irrespective of the community they are in. Thinking back to SlutWalk’s aim to change the narrative around rape and slut-shaming, West suggests that even in communities that are built on a motto of ‘safe, sane, consensual’ activity and that believe in respecting boundaries are not exempt from crumbling when a person accuses another person of violence or rape. This story can’t be told enough. There are too many women and men who suffer silently at the hands of violent people who find themselves without the support of their friends and are treated with suspicion when they come forward. Everything she says in her opening paragraph rings true and calling someone ‘crazy’ or a drama queen is a surprisingly effective way to undermine a sincere bid for help, awareness and, indeed, a bid to keep others safe:

While sexual violence is an issue for people of all genders and the genderqueer, generally the issue involves women (cis and trans) being assaulted by cismen. This essay will focus on that, but keeping everyone involved in the conversation is the only way real change can occur.

I’ve been witness to, and have experienced firsthand, the silencing of sexual assault, rape or abuse victims within the kink community. Threads about it get deleted from Fetlife. The women who speak up about their experiences getb labeled as “crazy.” Sexual violence is still a taboo subject, and victims who speak up are often accused of just trying to drum up “drama.” Most people show more concern for the effects of an accusation on the man accused, and don’t consider what the woman has experienced. This reaction in the kink community mirrors that of society in general.

I look forward to next year’s conference and hope that for those of us who can’t travel to it that Tess, Dee and Inara take the time to publish another one of these excellent collections of essays. As an activist, Momentum was essential reading that took the temperature of sex in America for my contemporaries.

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Out and About in Los Angeles

Eric Charles, the incredible alt-nightlife (etc) photographer, is in a show at Smashbox in LA in April 26. (You remember him from his spread in the Erotic Review?)

This show is part of MOPLA, which is also showing work by Jesse Chehak, whose Play It as It Lays series further fuels my love for the Didion novel and those long drives.

The image for the Smashbox MOPLA show reminded me of the frequent sightings of wealthy women of Los Feliz displaying themselves for the roofers of Los Angeles in Benjamin T Miller’s wonderful new story in the latest Zyzzyva. He has another story our with the Santa Monica Review. You can find them at the LA Times Festival of Books, where you can also find Granta resting in between a host of events at the festival and beyond. If you’re up for it, join us at Literary Death Match on Friday, 20 April or on 18 April for an evening in memory of Anthony Shadid.

We’ll be at the Festival of Books all weekend, so stop by booth 059 and say hello!

Director Simone Jude on her film Public Sex, Private Lives

From photographer Thomas Ruff’s current show of porn imagery at the Gagosian to perennial discussions about the influence of porn on intimate grooming, sex workers lives have alot to do with everyone’s sex life. But how many of us try to understand the life of a prostitute, porn performer, stripper…? Do we ever really get to hear the sex worker’s point of view?  We’re often fed other people’s sex lives with heaping, creamy, sugared spoonfuls of salacious memoir. (I consume those with gusto. Who wouldn’t? They are as tantalizing as The Bold and the Beautiful.) When I found out about Simone Jude’s Kickstarter campaign for her forthcoming documentary Public Sex, Private Lives, I was excited. Jude’s films promises to give a measured, in-depth look at the lives and motivations of three women in porn. I spent some time poking around her Vimeo videos and the Public Sex, Private Lives website and I wanted to find out more. So, I talked to Jude about curating a pornographic library, Philip Glass and Paris Is Burning.

Saskia: What drew you to pornography as a subject for documentary filmmaking?

Simone: The public element of porn performance compelled me to explore the private lives of these women who have made porn into successful careers. It’s strange to me that although virtually everyone watches porn, many people still judge the performers in porn and attach stigma to the job. I’m also interested in exploring the ways in which American society both fetishizes and disparages aggressive femininity.

How did you meet Lorelei Lee, Princess Donna, and Isis Love and how did they come to be involved in this project?

I met Lorelei Lee and Princess Donna in the queer scene in San Francisco in 2006. Since then, I have gotten to know them better as people and as performers. The relationships we’ve developed allowed me to capture a strikingly intimate portrait of these women’s lives.

What was the most unexpected or surprising discovery about the lives of these women?

It was amazing to discover how quickly life unfolded for these women as I followed them over the years. I wasn’t exactly sure what my story would be when I began shooting Lorelei in 2009. In the course of following her for three years, I saw her graduate college, start an MFA at NYU, write a screenplay that became a movie starring James Franco, Heather Graham and Lily Taylor, testify in a federal obscenity trial, and get married.

On your Kickstarter page, you mention that discussion about sex and sexuality are all over the media right now — from how we use the word slut to Fifty Shades of Grey, not to mention questions around birth control, a woman’s right to choose and the horror-show of Rick Santorum. How do you want this film to contribute to that dialogue?

Despite all the talk about sex and porn in the media, we rarely hear from sex workers themselves. These women have a lot to say, and I strongly believe we should be listening to them. There are a lot of misconceptions about why women do porn, what they get out of it, and what the work means to them. There are as many stories as there are performers, and this film offers three of them.

What and who inspire you?

Music inspires me every day. I see a lot of parallels between a beautiful song and a powerful movie. Both art forms can reach a climax of emotion when you forget you’re listening or watching and simply sink into the beauty of experiencing the art. The film that inspired me to make documentaries was Paris is Burning, a seminal film on New York city drag ball culture in the 80s.

I don’t think the average person approaches porn with a curatorial eye, yet there are so many wonderful directors and films out there. I’m particularly impressed by Madison Young work across art, kink and pornography, Stoya’s joie de vivre, Good Releasing’s lines… Which pornographic movies are your classics? (I initially wrote ‘ are in your erotic canon’, but I couldn’t stop giggling to myself.)

Haha. That’s a great question! Queer Porn TV is a sexy, creative and political challenge to mainstream hetero-normative porn. Courtney Trouble has an edge to her aesthetic that I appreciate. Kink.com has a lot of talented folks who produce very creative content. I like that Kink.com brings consent to the forefront. Also The Crashpad series by Pink and White has always felt quite unique in the rawness and diversity of their scenes and performers.

 As a composer, how did you approach the music for the documentary and what are your influences for the soundtrack?

Lately I’ve been listening to a lot synth-based bands and composers. I love M83 who often juxtapose full synth sounds followed by sparse piano. I also love Philip Glass who has a great sense of drama behind his piano film scores. I am of the musical philosophy that less is more. I start simply and build layers slowly and instinctually, trying to stay centered through the whole process. When I find myself thinking too much, I walk away for a bit and come back with a fresh ear.

Any hilarious or curious anecdotes from the shoot?

I loved following Princess Donna and her Mom together. Going through some major life changes of her own, Donna’s mom came to a few of Donna’s crowd based porn shoots, which led to some hilarious and awkward mother-daughter moments. You will have to see the movie to get the whole story!

 

Dalliances: The Image Edition

Let’s listen to the Tavener’s Lament of the Mother as we read.

Karl Lagerfeld in the supermarket and his many faces.

Tom Ford powders Plum Sykes‘ nose in last year’s September Vogue (on a coffee table in a flat where I am tending to a tiny cat), and I find in her fizzy admiration of Tom a life philosophy somewhere between Zen and Hedy Lamarr.

Playboy talks to Camille Paglia, 1995.

Revisit Paris is Burning, a documentary on the Golden Age of NYC drag balls.

Why narcissists give the best face at interviews.

When are words weapons?

I’ve been seeing these Pro-gay slogans all over London on our red buses. So simple, so direct. So happy to see them. Here’s to marriage equality.

Thomas Ruff’s photographs taken from porn sites complicate the idea that “Porn takes the universal desire to have sex and delivers it and improves on it: perfect bodies, no disease or impotence [...], no heartbreak, no regrets, no consequences.” (Thomas Ruff’s ma.r.s is showing at the Gagosian Gallery, Britannia St, London WC1X 9JD from 8 March-14 April)

Vice interviews lawyer Myles Jackman about the landmark Michael Peacock obscenity case, and all signals point to a culture less tolerant of censorship of sexual speech (NSFW topic of conversation, but a must-read for those interested in censorship and the media).

Bret Easton Ellis on the art of fiction and ‘lifestyle’ sold as ‘life’.

Lucy McRae tells us how biology and technology can merge – and transform – our bodies’ architecture.

Lists for list-lovers who fancy a spring clean.

Vogue.

Berries in My Mouth: A reading list

Planet Books is a Welsh publishing house. It thrills me that they brought this Galician novel into English. I’m looking forward to reading it. Dafydd Prys was kind enough to send it my way. It is ‘the retelling of a fateful few days in the life of a raucous group of Galician men hellbent on a drinking session.’

I feel a duty to read every memoir I can about a woman’s sexual life. Most of them disappoint me. Monique Roffey‘s writing is pacy, but it didn’t do for me what I needed it to do. The again, I wonder what I expect from a book on this subject? Do I want to relate to her all the way through? Feel catharsis when she receive that lava-email from her boyfriend’s long-term lover? Do I want her to show me a new side of sex and lust, the animal, pagan side of humanity that refuses to be tamed? I liked the discomfort of having to identify the grotesque ex also as a viable and charismatic lover.

I am busy falling in love with Camille Paglia collection of essays Vamps and Tramps, and then Judith ‘Jack’ Halberstam articulates the nagging undercurrent that curbs my admiration in an article about Lady Gaga. I am irked by how her transcripts from live broadcasts seem to indicate that she interrupts people — often — when she disagrees with them. I wonder if it is a very Sixties way to be a radical. Polite discourse is the new wave, I suspect. Her interruptions undermine her power. A truly powerful point of view doesn’t need crash a conversation — it takes charge of it by its own authority. Anyway, posh is the new punk.

Jim Crace will be at three Granta events this May: Birmingham, Cotwolds (18 May) and London (11 May). I can’t wait to read this. Another book that slips away from the novel and short story for a fling with poetic prose, I hope.

You know you are an Angeleno when an essay on CalTrans makes you ache for home and when you feel the arid wind of the dream of plentiful water. Joan Didion. Short form prose. Yes.

Now, we listen to the Chromatics on the Drive soundtrack and feel it rattle between our vertebrae.